What I Do Have

I just saw a lady walking the halls in the hospital by herself. She is in labor and all alone. No daddy. No loving husband to give support. Sad.

One of my friends from preschool, that I lost touch with since our children all moved on to different schools, passed away last weekend. It was a tragic accident. She was 39 and leaves behind a husband and a little boy. My heart is so sad for the whole situation.

So I sit here, having moments of self-pity and doubt, when these things flash in front of me. Why me? Why do I have such hard pregnancies when I do everything "right"? I know women that use drugs while they are pregnant, that engage in risky behaviors, that do everything "wrong" and never have a single glitch. I get a bad case of the "why me's?"

That is just stinkin' thinkin' and it doesn't do me or anyone else any good.

Everyone has hard times. Everyone has troubles. No one gets through life without disappointment, heartache or difficulty. God is so good to show me this when I need it. I can always count on Him to offer me some perspective - it has happened so many times in my life and I'm so grateful for those reminders.

Here is what I do have:

• a healthy baby growing in my tummy
• excellent medical care and the insurance to pay for it
• nurses spoiling me rotten and taking great care of me
• doctors that care and show me so much compassion
• a husband that loves me so much, doing everything and anything I ask and then some
• friends to entertain me, love me, pray for me
• fantastic in laws taking good care of my boys in my absence
• two sweet children that are being so good about this hard time away from mommy
• a time to rest before Olivia gets here and things get c-r-a-z-y
• faith that all things happen for a reason

Here is what I could do without: the sound of women giving birth in the room next door. Some women have a harder time than others with labor and I could do without that soundtrack. Oh well. :-)