I have a yucky head cold. I am 8 months pregnant. There are very few things I can take for this cold, so I am taking nothing and just suffering through. Also, I am trying very hard to not go into labor with Olivia Kate and end up back in the hospital or put on bed rest for the next two weeks. I've got stuff to do! We are having a "snow day" tomorrow with our schooling, I have 34 meals to make and freeze before the baby comes, we are having friends over on Saturday, and I am having a girls only weekend with one of my besties next weekend.
I don't have time for sickness or bedrest.
Often I feel like I struggle to get it all done. To be perfect. It is hard for me when the boys don't behave perfectly or when the house isn't shiny and clean. I honestly like the living areas of our home to look like no one actually "lives" here. Steve does too and this is not easy with two boys running around, living in that space. :-)
Another thing I struggle with is when the children don't behave the way I think they should. I feel like it reflects badly on me as a parent, like I somehow have failed when they have a bad day or get overly emotional about something. I have got one child that is just very strong willed. He has always been that way. He marches to a beat that I just don't hear. He reminds Steve and I of our sisters...not very social, content with one or two friends, happy to be home with family, knows what he wants and doesn't really appreciate your efforts to make him conform, incredibly bright...
I spend a lot of time worrying about that child. Isn't that ridiculous? Just because his personality is so different from mine, I obsess. Good grief. Just seeing it written down makes me remember how silly it all is.
Well, today I read a blog that really touched my heart. It was from a mom that has been there and has the amazing perspective of looking back. I'm attaching the post because I want to always be able to link back to it and remind myself of this perspective.
When I forget, this will remind me...http://lysaterkeurst.com/2012/01/i-dont-want-to-raise-a-good-child/
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