Feeling the pull...

Have you ever had God pulling on your heart about something and you just want to say no? Not just say "no" but run screaming in the other direction, crying that you are just fine where you are, thank you very much?

That is how I feel about something right now. God is pulling my heart in a direction I don't want to go. I am in a "comfort" zone and I like it here. The fact that I am not supposed to be in this particular "comfort" zone any longer is making me a little bit crazy.

I obeyed God for a while this summer and I saw the fruit of that choice. It was pretty sweet. Then I thought....you know, the other thing really is an okay thing too. So, we went back to what was familiar and now I am seeing the fruit of that choice. The fruit here is bitter. I know better, I really do, but changes are hard. Stability and familiarity are so important to me. But at what cost?

So, I am going to pray and trust God. I have never seen Him punish obedience and I am going to cling to that. Jeremiah 29:11 says "For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not harm you. Plans to give you a hope and a future." I am holding fast to this scripture as I try to embrace the change that God has for not just me, but my whole family.